this whole eve carson story has taken a serious toll on me the past couple of days....it's been really hard. everytime i look at a picture of this girls beautiful, smiling face i cant help but think someone put a gun to her head and shot her. that's exactly what happend...she must have been so scared. it also really hits home because im only three years older than her...it could have been me or any of my girl friends. she was in the wrong place at the wrong time. i was talking with my friend, sabrina, who is a reporter at the ABC affiliate and that helped today. she has been having the same feelings as me lately about the whole thing...it was good to talk to her about it.

on thursday, when the story broke about who she was, the whole day was insane as far as covering it went. you kind of just go on autopilot though, the adrenaline kicks in, and you dont let it get to you. when i got home though, i just broke down. i was physically exhausted and even more emotionally tired. on friday when i was writing and editing my story, i just started crying thinking about it. people around here absolutely devestate...for me, it's impossible to be around people who are hurting so much and not be affected by it.

the good news, is that she is in a better place...i bet she's floating on a cloud somewhere :)

typically, i dont work on the weekends but yesterday i worked to cover the Duke/UNC game. it was actually a such a relief to cover the game and talk to the fans around here. they just needed this game as a distraction from what happend...a chance to smile and have a fun...and honestly, so did i so it worked out well. and UNC won which was even better! it was neat to see the students rush Franklin Street after the game...they all just piled into the streets cheering and screaming...even lit a few fires out there too. it was controlled chaos though so it was okay.

today i ended up working as well...but really it wasnt much. they just had me and jeremy (one of our AWESOME photographers! shout out, jer! :) hanging out at the police station in case there was any breaking news out of the eve carson investigation...there wasn't. here was our day: got there around 3 pm...talked and BS'd with some of the other stations for a few hours...met up with liz and rod (another reporter and photog at my station) for some chinese food for dinner...jeremy and i went back to the live truck at the police department where we read our books for a while (yes, we each brought a book because we knew we'd be doing nothing!), talked a little more and then left for the night. see, guys? news isn't as glamorous as you might think! lol we actually had fun though so it was good times!

tomorrow, im off! havent had a day off in 7 days so i have a lot of chores and errands to do...im kind of looking forward to it because i need to feel like my life is getting back on order after the craziness of the last few days!